Love & Hate

If there are any infertiles still reading this blog, I would suggest that you don’t continue reading this post as I feel the need to vent about this pregnancy, but I also feel the need to state the positives.

Hate

This is what I hate about this pregnancy:
* I’m huge, my belly is just so big I’m finding it hard to do anything
* I can’t bend over anymore and pick things up and I’ve still got 7-8 weeks left
* I hate the crampy pains when I roll over in bed
* I hate it when I’m walking and I get a cramp
* I hate it that I can’t walk as much and would love to take Jordy for his morning / afternoon walk
* I hate it that I can’t get on the ground and play with Jordy, it is just too hard to get back up
* I’m hating the heartburn (although it is not as bad as it was with Jordy)
* I hate feeling so heavy
* I hate feeling so tired
* I hate the breathlessness and dizziness

Love

This is what I love about this pregnancy:
* I love knowing which baby is moving, our little boy is just as active as Jordan was,
* I love that Tim just gets up and helps with out having to be asked
* I love that I’m having twins and I feel very blessed.
* I’m really happy that this pregnancy has been relatively easy with no complications (so far).
* I love having more scans so that I can see the babies more often
* I’m lucky that most of my clothes still fit
* I’m excited about the babies coming and completing our little family
* I love it that I’m having a boy and a girl
* I love the support I’m getting from Tim

Overall

I’m actually relieved that this is my last pregnancy, we will not be trying for another baby as the risk for another set of twins is very high especially as it runs in my family and I've got my two boys and little girl, what more could I ask for?

I’m excited and looking forward to bringing the babies home, however I just know how hard the next 7-8 weeks are going to be. If I’m already complaining about how heavy I feel now then what will it be like when both of them are close to 2kg’s each?

I’m not “OVER” the pregnancy, not by far as these babies still need to bake a little longer. I’m just mourning the fact that I can’t do as much as I would like!

Send Off

I decided to leave work earlier as appointments and other engagements were starting to pile up on me. Plus it didn’t effect the pay out that I would be receiving.

As there are a number of people leaving the department there was one lunch organised for all 4 of us, the turn was pretty big approx 50 people and it was good to see some of my old friends for other departments.

The only down side to the afternoon was receiving a phone call from Day Care saying that Jordy had been ill and could I please come and pick him up. Tim couldn’t sign off and pick him up and I was on my way a lunch that was partially for me. My Mum was not available and my MIL has no car seat.

In the end I was able to eat and say my speech which was rushed and I had received another call that he was really not well.

I felt bad for leaving so quickly but there is nothing I can do about a sick child. The good thing about gastro (yes there is a good thing) is that it only lasts 24 hours.

I requested that any gift being bought for my farewell be purchased for the babies. This is what I received:

Two photo albums, some funky socks and clothes.

R.I.P Nagy Mamma

We received the news that my maternal Grandmother passed away sometime this week. She had been ill for a while but most recently had gone down hill. She lived in Hungary and was my only living grandparent. It is times like these that you really feel the distance.

I had only met her handful of times and the last time I saw her was in 2003, when Tim and I were in Hungary for 3 months.

My mother will be going home for the funeral in January.

It is hard to find the ‘right’ words and ‘kind’ words considering how she treated my mother. I was brought up to respect my elders and the dead.

So in short R.I.P Nagy Mamma.

After 9 years of service

My position has been made redundant.

How do I feel?

I'm very very happy, the payout that I will be receiving means that I can be a full time Mum whilst still supporting my family.

It does mean that we will not be building our new house and we will be staying put. I'm ok with that, there was no guarantee that we would sell this house, so there was no guarantee that we would ever have built our new one.

Now the decision has been made and we can relax and concentrate on preparing our current home for the babies.

Whilst I'm happy, I'm also sad to say goodbye to all my friends at work.